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you

Mon, 15 Dec 2008 20:02:02 GMT

you

time has given me a lot to think about the way we spend it together
there have been moments when i thought that we have connected
only for several accounts in our random meetings
15 minutes are not enough for us to be fraternizing
and in those moments i have grown fond of you
i even thought wonderful things about you and i
thoughts that can only be satisfied by you, and knowing that you felt what i was feeling too
but these feelings are not mine to possess, no, not just yet
still i am weakened and left powerless betrayed by my insecurities
you seemed so close yet too far
a sense of belongingness comes to me whenever your eyes graces mine
those two little jewels that keeps on mesmerizing me and seem to touch my soul
a jolt of happiness embraces my heart whenever you acknowledge my little smiles
makes me wonder if i am alone with this
...should i take action?
...should i step forward?
...should i take the leap?
simple as it is to others but this is a mountain for me
only time will tell...
only time will heal...
only time...
if there is still time...
i would...
i...
you...

wahehehe

Fri, 29 Sep 2006 13:29:36 GMT

LOOKS VS. talent

What's happening with the music industry today? I mean look at where it's heading. What happened to God given talent? It seems that media is always going for the better looking, less talented "hot and sexy" tight, "what the F@#$K" (pardon my French) hanep sa ganda o guwapo tao to mentality. While people, who has the natural born "talent" is most likely restricted to karaoke, cr concerts, special numbers, are left out in the cold, with no one to share their gifts with (except inside the church or a private gatherings like weddings) are always neglected and set aside. All are seemed to be focused with what they see, that's media I guess. And there is nothing that these talented people who are less attractive, somewhat physically challenged could ever do to compete with these so called gods and goddesses of the screen. I'm not saying that I am one of these people cause I do believe that I have a lot to learn when it comes to singing and performing. My only cry is that these people would be given a chance to showcase their talents and be given a chance to express themselves and enjoy what they were born to do. I sure wish people would come to notice these things cause talent can be nurtured more only if they were given a chance to prove themselves and be in the spot light for a change.

Hehe wala lang, wala kasi ako ma post�

Moving out

Tue, 25 Apr 2006 15:09:44 GMT

waaaaaaaaaaaaa! just want to shout out that i finally decided to move out of the bird's house and start to live alone on a house that i am going to rent and maintain, i hope i can though. i am both excited and scared though!

never mind

Tue, 21 Feb 2006 12:49:03 GMT

have you ever been so fed up with a lot of things that are so close to your life that you sometimes just want to throw them all the way? have you ever felt so disgusted with the things you see eveyday? have you ever felt so dizzy with people that you meet, you greet, you go out with, people that ask simple things, people that just won't leave you alone. i do. alot of times i just want to vanish in front of them, or simply float away in the distance never to be seen again. or if i could only have one of those invisibility cloaks that harry potter has in possession, when he just wanted to get away with the croud, unnoticed or just look at the mirror and see what your heart's desire (like him seeing his parents when truth is, he could never ever talk to tem again) or better yet, be like "atom" who, by the twist of a knob could make himself so small that even a microscope couldn't see him. isnt there a way to just go away or just change your identity, be in a place where no one knows who you are and start over.
i also get easily tired of people questioning me about my love life, which obviously i lack, and not planning to have one and i'm really proud of it. even my little sister thinks that i have given up on her, when in fact i was just teaching her that life isn't fair abnd that she has consequences to face, whenever she commits a mistake. all i really wanted for her is to understand, and realize how much harder life would be if she would face it alone. i just simlpy wish people would stop asking and start mindin their own.
but then again, life seems to inflict upon us that man needs someone to rely on. why can't we just live alone? why cant we just scurry about our own lives not pickin on others, while in reality these people who stick their necks with others, seem not to notice anything about themselves, the cancer that has been eating their very existence. why not find a cure to your own, before mending others.
oh if you people just leave me alone and let me be...

just because...

Mon, 09 Jan 2006 13:54:24 GMT

just because you dislike somebody, you'd do anything in your power to get rid of them? - why then do you notice the speck in your brother's eyes when in fact, the plank in front of you, hides you from the truth that's just inches away from your face.

just because somebody who has wronged you, has asked forgiveness from you, whom you'd accepeted completely, still long to one day seek revenge, find a way to accuse and ridicule, ten folds over, and never feel remorse. - remember, seventy times seven.

just because someone new, outside the colony had stepped over and is doing a good enough job, seemed to be outshining you, caused you to be jelous, somehow you think, you have stayed long enough, and declared to yourself, "i have sacrificed alot, i've endured too much, 'why should i listen, newcomer'?". - fools to shame the wise.

just because you have the ability, the talent, the resources. you'd start hording things to yourself, disregarding those whom deserve recognition, a piece of the pie. instead you ignore these extraordinary gifts. you think you could do a better job than the others. - there is no "I" in team.

just because you think you can run faster, you'd slack around and wait for the turtle. when in fact, the turtle had outsmarted you again, and again, and again.

just because achievements dictate what kind of future you ought to have, youd forget the little things that is really the reason why you hold your head up high and keeps you on your toes. - the first shall be last and the last shall be first...

Things i miss alot...

Tue, 20 Dec 2005 15:03:22 GMT

earlier, around 7ish. i was in a wedding. ate emie's wedding. it was really strange, cause it was the first time i sang at a wedding that actually started on time. and during the 14 years that i've been singing in weddings, this was a first. a break through. (hehehe) anyways, we all had fun. ida, john, kaligay, moks, jen, miki and the rest of the gang was there. okay, let's get to the point... what are things that i miss?

1st, singing special songs during church. i know i can do it every sunday kaya lang, dahil tamad ako, hindi ko nagagawa.

2nd, manood ng sine na nag-iisa lang. well, after work. am too tired na to watch a movie. well if you work from 145 til 1045 in the morning youll probably understand.

3rd, making flash movies for fullcup. well, maybe next year i'd be able to. kasi john would buy a computer para sa house. i hope i could buy the monitor.

4th, mag-exercise! oo! i used to love making out, este working-out pala. several years ago i would jog around the academic oval with john and the old ones (hehe)

5th, band practice at church. yes! next year i'll be able to come to practice. yes!
and sing songs again!

6th, playing CS with the gang. i gunnig down my friends over and over and over and over and over... till my battery dies...

7th, blogging. ehehe. no need to explain any further.

and most of all, i really miss my mom... :(

well, i usually would mope around for a month or two pero, i know that i still have a mom and dad here (bossing and mom shirley). just want to thank them for what they had done for me and nine. kung wala siguro sila, i really don't know what to do. and ofcourse, syempre the Lord God Almighty!

oops

Sat, 26 Nov 2005 01:04:03 GMT

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haaaay

Fri, 18 Nov 2005 17:28:14 GMT

sorry, next week i promise. i have some things to take care of first. i have to re-think what is happening with my life. right now all i can say is that i'm a floater. have to be inspired again. i'm caught between the need to be loved and commitment. i have to gather all my thoughts and think it through.

walele

Tue, 28 Jun 2005 07:51:04 GMT

Your Birthdate: January 17

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just a song, (as far as i could remember)

Fri, 27 May 2005 09:04:15 GMT

Smile--Make 'em think you're happy

Lie--And say that things are fine

And hide that empty longing that you feel

Don't ever show it

Just keep your heart concealed

Why--Are the days so lonely

Where can a heart go free

And who will dry the tears that no one's seen

There must be someone

To share your silent dreams

Caught like a leaf in the wind

Lookin' for a friend--Where can you turn

Whisper the words of a prayer--And you'll find Him there

Arms open wide--Love in His eyes