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Tuesday, August 25, 2009
"...And friends are friends forever, if the Lord's the Lord of them. And a friend will not say never if the welcome will not end..." i used to believe this phrase when i was younger. And yet as time passes by, when these so-called friends finally gets a job, or when they move to another city or another country, they simply forget what they have left behind. All of my so-called friends went and seem to forget that they had once had someone to have a good time with, a good laugh and companionship during those times when they mostly feel bad about what's been happening to them and their families. I understand that they have to move on and deal with their new found life and continue on and become better with what they do. I am not mad at my friends personally but now i understand that, in order for us to live we must leave things in the past and deal with what we have now and make it your own. Do the best with what you have and take care of yourself. In the end, friends are only there whenever they are in close proximity. Other than that you are on your own...
Posted at 8/25/2009 1:23:41 am by kulafu
Saturday, May 30, 2009
one month of undisturbed slumber! what a wonderful feeling! i wanna thank one of me trusted, and still single friend (ladies, be on the look out for this guy), Kevin. yes, thanks kev's for letting me bantay your house while you were out of the country, i really had plenty of rest (and free internet surfing and cable, hehehe) during the months and for the first time this year, i had a whole month with no tardy days at work. just want to re-iterate that if you are going out of the country again i will be available and be more than willing to look after your place again. just text me. thanks!
Posted at 5/30/2009 11:46:23 am by kulafu
Friday, May 29, 2009
funny how time passes even when you are not having fun. yes, four years have passed and still i am at this job that i do 5 days a week, 9 hrs a day (including lunch time that is not payed). well, i'm not saying that i do not enjoy this job i have, but just to point out, it took me nearly four years to enter another level with my current work and i am not going to sit around and wait another 4 years to get to the next level. it's true that i lack some educational background that is needed for me to have a promotion but who knows? i believe i've already completed a month without any lates or absences (and yes, i used to be fond of being tardy or at least have 1 day that i skip work just to say that i am able to maximize my sick leaves for the year). i want to start a new trend this year (and i hope i wont give up so easily). i know that you can not gain anything by being lazy and laid back when it comes to making a living. i wanna be able to accomplish something in my life (at least at the work place) so that i can look back and say to myself that i had accomplished something that is worthwhile. let me put it this way, i'm 34 and im a college drop out, my singing career is, i believe not going to push through (including the long overdue "indy album" that should have come out several years ago) and i am still single (still clueless when it comes to relationships with the opposite sex). and so, i will have to do some sacrifices and be able to accomplish these simple goals in my life so that i would be, in a kind of way, say to myself, that i have not totally waisted this life that i borrowed. so, God give me strength!
Posted at 5/29/2009 6:38:14 am by kulafu
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
you
time has given me a lot to think about the way we spend it together
there have been moments when i thought that we have connected
only for several accounts in our random meetings
15 minutes are not enough for us to be fraternizing
and in those moments i have grown fond of you
i even thought wonderful things about you and i
thoughts that can only be satisfied by you, and knowing that you felt what i was feeling too
but these feelings are not mine to possess, no, not just yet
still i am weakened and left powerless betrayed by my insecurities
you seemed so close yet too far
a sense of belongingness comes to me whenever your eyes graces mine
those two little jewels that keeps on mesmerizing me and seem to touch my soul
a jolt of happiness embraces my heart whenever you acknowledge my little smiles
makes me wonder if i am alone with this
...should i take action?
...should i step forward?
...should i take the leap?
simple as it is to others but this is a mountain for me
only time will tell...
only time will heal...
only time...
if there is still time...
i would...
i...
you...
Posted at 12/16/2008 4:02:02 am by kulafu
Friday, September 29, 2006
LOOKS VS. talent
What's happening with the music industry today? I mean look at where it's heading. What happened to God given talent? It seems that media is always going for the better looking, less talented "hot and sexy" tight, "what the F@#$K" (pardon my French) hanep sa ganda o guwapo tao to mentality. While people, who has the natural born "talent" is most likely restricted to karaoke, cr concerts, special numbers, are left out in the cold, with no one to share their gifts with (except inside the church or a private gatherings like weddings) are always neglected and set aside. All are seemed to be focused with what they see, that's media I guess. And there is nothing that these talented people who are less attractive, somewhat physically challenged could ever do to compete with these so called gods and goddesses of the screen. I'm not saying that I am one of these people cause I do believe that I have a lot to learn when it comes to singing and performing. My only cry is that these people would be given a chance to showcase their talents and be given a chance to express themselves and enjoy what they were born to do. I sure wish people would come to notice these things cause talent can be nurtured more only if they were given a chance to prove themselves and be in the spot light for a change.
Hehe wala lang, wala kasi ako ma post…
Posted at 9/29/2006 9:29:36 pm by kulafu
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
waaaaaaaaaaaaa! just want to shout out that i finally decided to move out of the bird's house and start to live alone on a house that i am going to rent and maintain, i hope i can though. i am both excited and scared though!
Posted at 4/25/2006 11:09:44 pm by kulafu
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
have you ever been so fed up with a lot of things that are so close to your life that you sometimes just want to throw them all the way? have you ever felt so disgusted with the things you see eveyday? have you ever felt so dizzy with people that you meet, you greet, you go out with, people that ask simple things, people that just won't leave you alone. i do. alot of times i just want to vanish in front of them, or simply float away in the distance never to be seen again. or if i could only have one of those invisibility cloaks that harry potter has in possession, when he just wanted to get away with the croud, unnoticed or just look at the mirror and see what your heart's desire (like him seeing his parents when truth is, he could never ever talk to tem again) or better yet, be like "atom" who, by the twist of a knob could make himself so small that even a microscope couldn't see him. isnt there a way to just go away or just change your identity, be in a place where no one knows who you are and start over.
i also get easily tired of people questioning me about my love life, which obviously i lack, and not planning to have one and i'm really proud of it. even my little sister thinks that i have given up on her, when in fact i was just teaching her that life isn't fair abnd that she has consequences to face, whenever she commits a mistake. all i really wanted for her is to understand, and realize how much harder life would be if she would face it alone. i just simlpy wish people would stop asking and start mindin their own.
but then again, life seems to inflict upon us that man needs someone to rely on. why can't we just live alone? why cant we just scurry about our own lives not pickin on others, while in reality these people who stick their necks with others, seem not to notice anything about themselves, the cancer that has been eating their very existence. why not find a cure to your own, before mending others.
oh if you people just leave me alone and let me be...
Posted at 2/21/2006 8:49:03 pm by kulafu
Monday, January 09, 2006
just because you dislike somebody, you'd do anything in your power to get rid of them? - why then do you notice the speck in your brother's eyes when in fact, the plank in front of you, hides you from the truth that's just inches away from your face. just because somebody who has wronged you, has asked forgiveness from you, whom you'd accepeted completely, still long to one day seek revenge, find a way to accuse and ridicule, ten folds over, and never feel remorse. - remember, seventy times seven. just because someone new, outside the colony had stepped over and is doing a good enough job, seemed to be outshining you, caused you to be jelous, somehow you think, you have stayed long enough, and declared to yourself, "i have sacrificed alot, i've endured too much, 'why should i listen, newcomer'?". - fools to shame the wise. just because you have the ability, the talent, the resources. you'd start hording things to yourself, disregarding those whom deserve recognition, a piece of the pie. instead you ignore these extraordinary gifts. you think you could do a better job than the others. - there is no "I" in team. just because you think you can run faster, you'd slack around and wait for the turtle. when in fact, the turtle had outsmarted you again, and again, and again. just because achievements dictate what kind of future you ought to have, youd forget the little things that is really the reason why you hold your head up high and keeps you on your toes. - the first shall be last and the last shall be first...
Posted at 1/9/2006 9:54:24 pm by kulafu
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
earlier, around 7ish. i was in a wedding. ate emie's wedding. it was really strange, cause it was the first time i sang at a wedding that actually started on time. and during the 14 years that i've been singing in weddings, this was a first. a break through. (hehehe) anyways, we all had fun. ida, john, kaligay, moks, jen, miki and the rest of the gang was there. okay, let's get to the point... what are things that i miss?
1st, singing special songs during church. i know i can do it every sunday kaya lang, dahil tamad ako, hindi ko nagagawa.
2nd, manood ng sine na nag-iisa lang. well, after work. am too tired na to watch a movie. well if you work from 145 til 1045 in the morning youll probably understand.
3rd, making flash movies for fullcup. well, maybe next year i'd be able to. kasi john would buy a computer para sa house. i hope i could buy the monitor.
4th, mag-exercise! oo! i used to love making out, este working-out pala. several years ago i would jog around the academic oval with john and the old ones (hehe)
5th, band practice at church. yes! next year i'll be able to come to practice. yes!
and sing songs again!
6th, playing CS with the gang. i gunnig down my friends over and over and over and over and over... till my battery dies...
7th, blogging. ehehe. no need to explain any further.
and most of all, i really miss my mom... :(
well, i usually would mope around for a month or two pero, i know that i still have a mom and dad here (bossing and mom shirley). just want to thank them for what they had done for me and nine. kung wala siguro sila, i really don't know what to do. and ofcourse, syempre the Lord God Almighty!
Posted at 12/20/2005 11:03:22 pm by kulafu
Saturday, November 26, 2005
Posted at 11/26/2005 9:04:03 am by kulafu
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